He should have just slipped some arsenic into my tea last night if he wanted me dead.
Most depraved analogy I’ve made to date? Probably. Not funny to some? Definitely. Funny to me? I have a sick sense of humor.
So where am I getting at by joking that my boyfriend tried to kill me? Tonight I used the gift card to the kickboxing place that John got me for Christmas. The one where he attached an adorable note:
I’m now under the belief that the card was a mere trap to have me believe I’m a badass. Guys, I’m not! Tonight was up there in most pathetic workout of my life. After relearning how to ride a bike… If you can even count that.
Well, tonight was the night. After discussing with a friend, who will remain called Diandra because it’s her alter ego, we decided to take their “toning” class together. The stars were aligned. I was feeling good. I’ve been working out regularly, my cardio is decent, I do yoga frequently, I even do the occasional jumping jack on my own time. I was sure that this would be a cinch. Or at least doable.
I have to be honest, Diandra, that doll, has gone multiple times but finds yoga more calming. Probably because no one is yelling at you in yoga. Now, the truth is, I can’t say I got yelled at, but I definitely felt the pressure to push myself. She warned me that this would happen, but I was overly confident in my ability.
Here’s how the class went:
Stretching, I got this.
Plank, 2 minutes, I got this. I’m going to show off.
I’m tired.
Move continuously… I don’t got this.
When did lifting two pound weights become this challenging?
Then everything went dark. That’s when I died.
I tried. I tried so damn hard, but I felt like I had a 100 pound weight on my back. Diandra and I discussed the class and the best way it can be described is as follows…
When I was in 9th grade I was in the slow math class. I swear – there were three teachers and eight students. Social studies, honors. Spanish, honors. English, college. Science AP (it was for two weeks, but it makes my story better.) Despite being an honors student, I struggled with math to the point of no return. That’s how I felt tonight. I felt like the kid that is really trying to understand what’s going on, but I’m just hoping no one notices that I have no idea what I’m doing. I wanted to disappear a bit. And it clicked in my head and brought me back to a place of empathy for every person putting themselves out there again in the workout community for the first time in a long time, or the first time ever. It sucks to be that kid.
Despite this feeling of wow I suck, I still got something out of it. Being humbled. I wanted to try again and prove that I can do better, I can learn, I want to learn. I thanked the teacher and left. Embarrassed, but humbled. Now, unlike Zumba, which I despise, I’m looking forward to getting my “badass” ass handed to me again. Maybe next time I’ll try to stay conscious.
John, you didn’t kill me. In the words of Kelly Clarkson – What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger… then I usually start making up the words because I have no idea what she’s actually saying.
52 Miles per Month 
Good luck on your next class lmaooooo ā¤
Hahaha I’m guessing you said lmao because I need it! Thank you, I’ll keep you posted š
As long as you don’t puke all over! haha
And I thought I was going to. I’ve never felt that way before!
Go have fun. Make yourself better. Remember that nobody knows how you feel on the inside, they are too busy struggling themselves to notice.
Peace!
Truth! Thanks for stopping by, your input is always highly welcomed!
Oh that’s so funny in a good way. Way to go for trying! Did I read that you learned to re-ride a bike?? That sounds like me. I used to ride a bike as a kid and then a few years back we went as a family to Sun Peaks in Kelowna. My husband got me on a, I don’t trail bike, or something with a full face helmut and all the gear. We went up a mountain on the chair lift and came down the mountain. I made it down, not all in one piece and he had the nerve to make comments on my ability. I could have killed him. Who does that after more then 20 yrs of not being on a bike, you expect me to come down a mountain? It was my own fault of course I don’t like to turn down a challenge š Great post!
That’s a great story. My back to hike ride experience was far less traumatic and far less exciting. Mine was 100% on flat Long Island land and on a beach cruiser. Now I feel like a baby… You’re cruising at speeds unheard of to me, I’m puttering along on a sidewalk. An old man stopped me and said, is this your first time? No old man!
Lol and you just described how I feel every time I get on the elliptical!
Don’t quit! That’s the point! I’m going back… When I can walk. Because I literally can’t walk.
Lol I hear that! I joined the gym so since I’m paying ill be going. I moved this week so I have had no need for the gym. Nothing like moving heavy furniture to get those muscles aching!!!